It's the ending of an era and the dawning of the new. I can't say I'm happy to enter this next part of my life. It's good to move on to a new chapter. It will bring more good, more surprises and adventures. I will cry my tears tonight and brave a smile tomorrow. The world will right itself.
Yes it means I've finally set Jay free. Not that he knew he was ever captured. It's just my imagining. He was mine in my own head and now I will let him move on to any other life he may choose. But of course I will always remain his best friend. Not even a new chapter in my life can change that. I will always love him, but in a different way now.
When I was little, I thought that I was special. That maybe I had a super power like flying or reading minds. I thought I would have a very unique and wonderful future like maybe becomming the president. Now that I am older, I realize that's probably not the case, but I haven't given up on making my future amazing and awesome. Maybe I won't get a miracle, but I can certainly work hard to make it good myself.
I will find that perfect boy, that one I'll be willing to spend my life with. I just have to work to make it so. Who knows? Maybe it will be Even or Jack or Jacoby. Maybe it will be Jay. Maybe it will be someone far better than I deserve. The future holds marvelous surprises. I will trust this and wait for what the future has in store for me.
True, this new chapter promises to be glorious. Still I can't keep my past out of mind. I will try to concentrate on this new world in which I spend more time with Jacoby and Evan. A world in which I buy wonderful dresses and try new and wonderous things. It gives me joy that I can bring my old experiences into this next part of my life. Maybe I will find my happily ever after, after all.
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